10.18.2010

Birthday Bliss

I did it. I crossed the threshold, & there's no going back. Sassy Mo & Jim no longer have a teenager- bless their hearts. But, thanks to my sweet friends, family, boyfriend (& family), & mostly Jesus, I had a beautiful, beautiful birthday...

Here are some pictures from the Saturday night festivities (plus some pictures from mine & Ryan's sushi date on Friday):



10.14.2010

Dreaming...












(P.C.: Blushing Ambition)
Take me here, please...

10.10.2010

Ten, Ten, Ten

Today is 10/10/10. How perfect...












(P.C.: Weheartit)
In 6 days, I will be twenty years old. TWENTY. 2-0. On October 16th, I will unashamedly leave my teenage years behind & embark upon perhaps the most important decade of my life. (Can't we say that about each decade?)

In the next ten years, I will experience changes, overcome trials, celebrate victories; accomplish goals, embrace failures, create experiences; laugh in the face of my insecurities, shake hands with confidence, draw near to Love; weep, giggle, be indifferent. I will do these things, Lord willing.

In the next ten years, I will get married, have babies, buy a house, purchase a car, become a teacher; take care of a home, join a new church family, see the world outside the pocketbook of my dad; wonder about the future, remember the past, cherish the present. I will do these things, Lord willing.

In the next ten years, I will hurt others, disable others, help others, love others; tear others down, build others up, ignore others; communicate with others, minister with others, share with others. I will do these things, Lord willing.

In the next ten years, I will be responsible, loyal, dependable; flaky, unreliable, untrustworthy; compliant, obeying, responsive; difficult, moody, defiant. I will be these things, Lord willing.

In the next ten years, I will grow & learn. I will love & hate. I will fail & succeed.

I am a contradiction according to these juxtapositions, but I am me. Human. Attempting to be more like Jesus Christ without doing anything of my own volition. It is by Him & for Him that I will see my twentieth birthday. And who knows what will happen in 6 days. Perhaps I won't even see that...

It's through someone I hold very dear to my heart (hint: he has been brought up many times in this little ol' blog, & he's very handsome), maybe even the dearest, that I have begun to learn about enjoying life one single day at a time. Maybe in the next ten years, I can solidify this thought & see it come to fruition. Maybe, as I begin life as a twenty-something, I can wrap my head around the truth that I am not guaranteed to see the sun rise again. I must take care of my soul as if I will die tomorrow.

Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, "If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that. James 4:14-15

I don't want to leave this blog feeling down about the uncertainty of the future, but rather hoping in Him who has hung on a tree for the sins of all mankind, hoping in Him who raised from the dead three days later, hoping in Him who is seated at the right hand of God, hoping in Him who is the Ancient of days, & being certain of eternity. Besides, the same day I turn 20, my man will be turning 22. I'm eagerly anticipating this coming weekend filled with presents, cake, surprises, & sushi with my love. I'm anticipating the sheer childlike happiness that envelops me in the morning on that day I celebrate my birth. I'm anticipating hanging out with family (I'll miss ya, BT). I'm anticipating all that's in store, & don't worry, I'll probably blog about it, because in my opinion, birthdays magnify blessings.

Cheers to Sunday night, a happy weekend, & a promising week ahead.

10.03.2010

Beautiful, Quite Beautiful

I received this expertly written poem from my dear friend a very long time ago. The funny thing about it is I forgot she wrote it, but I found it not too long ago, & I want to share it with all of you. It's just that good.

My Beautiful Friend by Molly Videtich

My dear friend I hope you know,
I hope it has been told to you before,
that you are a picture of beauty
of love, of grace, & so much more.

Far more beautiful are you
than the flowing brooks or streams,
than the snow caps of the mountains,
or the falling of autumn's leaves.

Far more beautiful are you
than the vast expanse of sky,
whether filled with the radiance of stars,
or beaming with the rays of life.

Far more beautiful are you
than the petal of a rose,
than each shade of color within,
or the elegance of its pose.

Far more beautiful are you
than the illimitable ocean,
than its mysterious depths,
or its symphonious motion.

Your beauty is undeniable,
one could nay dispute,
for the Creator of each of these
has also created you.

Far beyond the beauty of scenery and sky
lies the beauty of the heart, the soul, and the mind.

The beauty in an act of love
surpasses that held by the sun and its setting.
The beauty in the gift of grace
is far greater than ebb and flow of the ocean never ending.

The beauty of your heart is in the sacrifice God has given.
How much more beautiful is this than any earthly dimension?


I will forever treasure these sweet words.