(P.C.: Weheartit)
In 6 days, I will be twenty years old. TWENTY. 2-0. On October 16th, I will unashamedly leave my teenage years behind & embark upon perhaps the most important decade of my life. (Can't we say that about each decade?)
In the next ten years, I will experience changes, overcome trials, celebrate victories; accomplish goals, embrace failures, create experiences; laugh in the face of my insecurities, shake hands with confidence, draw near to Love; weep, giggle, be indifferent. I will do these things, Lord willing.
In the next ten years, I will get married, have babies, buy a house, purchase a car, become a teacher; take care of a home, join a new church family, see the world outside the pocketbook of my dad; wonder about the future, remember the past, cherish the present. I will do these things, Lord willing.
In the next ten years, I will hurt others, disable others, help others, love others; tear others down, build others up, ignore others; communicate with others, minister with others, share with others. I will do these things, Lord willing.
In the next ten years, I will be responsible, loyal, dependable; flaky, unreliable, untrustworthy; compliant, obeying, responsive; difficult, moody, defiant. I will be these things, Lord willing.
In the next ten years, I will grow & learn. I will love & hate. I will fail & succeed.
I am a contradiction according to these juxtapositions, but I am me. Human. Attempting to be more like Jesus Christ without doing anything of my own volition. It is by Him & for Him that I will see my twentieth birthday. And who knows what will happen in 6 days. Perhaps I won't even see that...
It's through someone I hold very dear to my heart (hint: he has been brought up many times in this little ol' blog, & he's very handsome), maybe even the dearest, that I have begun to learn about enjoying life one single day at a time. Maybe in the next ten years, I can solidify this thought & see it come to fruition. Maybe, as I begin life as a twenty-something, I can wrap my head around the truth that I am not guaranteed to see the sun rise again. I must take care of my soul as if I will die tomorrow.
Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, "If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that. James 4:14-15
I don't want to leave this blog feeling down about the uncertainty of the future, but rather hoping in Him who has hung on a tree for the sins of all mankind, hoping in Him who raised from the dead three days later, hoping in Him who is seated at the right hand of God, hoping in Him who is the Ancient of days, & being certain of eternity. Besides, the same day I turn 20, my man will be turning 22. I'm eagerly anticipating this coming weekend filled with presents, cake, surprises, & sushi with my love. I'm anticipating the sheer childlike happiness that envelops me in the morning on that day I celebrate my birth. I'm anticipating hanging out with family (I'll miss ya, BT). I'm anticipating all that's in store, & don't worry, I'll probably blog about it, because in my opinion, birthdays magnify blessings.
Cheers to Sunday night, a happy weekend, & a promising week ahead.
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