Never Alone

I know I promised a post regarding convictions, confidence, & creativity, but I'm just going to have to deviate from that plan & instead brag about God's promises. As if He needs me to brag at all.

The turkey is gone, family has left, & fall decorations are boxed up (almost). I am no longer surrounded by laughter, conversation, and the presence of people who love me, but by various handouts regarding disabilities, a half-finished cup of coffee, & laundry that needs to be put away. And with the house empty & excitement withdrawn, it's really easy for me to feel completely alone. Alone when I don't want to be. And sad. I want my brother to come back home and beat me in Scattergories. I want my aunt & uncle to drive up again & bring their rambunctious pups in to play. I want my man to be home for Thanksgiving. I want people surrounding me. But amidst all of my sadness & loneliness, God is faithful, & He is surrounding me. In reality, I'm not alone. He has promised to always be with me.

I was reminded of the thing I'm most thankful for tonight, & I couldn't help but cry. The chasm that would exist between me & God has been connected by the crucifixion of Jesus so that God might walk with me every second of every day. He has promised to always be with me.

And so I sang this song over & over & over in praise to Him...

So faithful, so constant.
So loving and so true.
So powerful in all You do.

You fill me. You see me.
You know my every move
and You love for me to sing to You.

I know that You are for me.
I know that You are for me.
I know that You will never,
forsake me in my weaknesses

I know that You have come now,
even if to write upon my heart.
To remind me who You are.

So patient, so gracious.
So merciful and true.
So wonderful in all You do.
You know me. You see me.
You know my every move.
You love for me to sing to You

Lord, I know that You are for me.
I know that You are for me.
I know that You will never,
forsake me in my weaknesses.
I know that You have come now,
even if to write upon my heart.

I was reminded of the Father's presence & His sufficiency tonight. I don't need the anticipation of the holidays; I don't need my family; I don't need anything besides Him. And I'm learning this. He is with me. He is always with me. And He loves me- boy, does He love me. His love is permanent, everlasting, & never failing. His love is lavished upon me with every tear, every laugh, & every ache. His love is so big that I can't wrap my arms around it.

He has my heart. 
My heart is content.  
My heart is thankful.